Three feet away

I have lately been contemplating this idea i have had about fear and longing.
It has to do with when we want something and cant seem to take the last few steps to get it.
What blocks our selves from making this small advance that feels like a huge chasm.
I have felt many times in my life i was standing three feet away from where i wanted to be.
In example being in a situation like getting a part in a movie or a gig or the job or the promotion or even the relationship etc.
It seems we can get close but its that last few feet that seems the hardest.
I started to ask why this seems so and why some people seem to always get what they desire.
A movie called "What the bleep do we know" that came out a wile back touched on it and many books i have read also spoke of it. "manifest destiny" some people also call it prayer or faith. I find the basic idea is how you believe.
if you believe ultimately you will have it you will inadvertently get it. but if you retain self doubt you will not. or it becomes much harder to attain. The psychological aspect of this seems to be that the longing is a deep seated emotional thing and can mostly be at the very core of a persons personal issues.
Some life trauma drives a person for fame or accomplishment in some part of there life to somehow heal a personal emotional wound. Or prove to a parent or loved one there worth or even show themselves that they are whole or deserving of praise or love from others. A primal instinct for acceptance. Or sense of personal worth even judged by you alone.
But if you don't feel you deserve it you may not take the necessary steps to move towards it. sometimes even we may talk our selves out of wanting it of fear of the pain of never getting it or shame and failure of not achieving it. but at the core, the insecurity or self evaluation of not being good enough can hinder your belief and create the negative aspects of manifestation. As in making wrong decisions and choices that one may not even know are counter productive to the goal.
All can be traced to fear. Fear of not being worthy is probably at the core of failure to achieve.

I did an experiment recently to see if wishing could manifest a thing you desired. i took an example from one of those self help books we have so many of these days. basically the idea was to put up a picture of something you wanted in this case it was a rare classic car i always liked and wished to someday own. So every day i took a look at the picture and imagined myself driving it. Even specific day dreaming like shifting and steering and tooling about with the top down. i imagined the color and found just the exact picture of one i wanted.
I said to myself i can have that if i believe it will happen. And i left it to faith to deliver.

Several things happened. one was that my interest in these cars started to pique and i began to look around for information on them. I read about there history and technical spec's. the second thing was i made effort to arrange my finances to maybe acquire one if i was lucky enough to find one for sale within my budget.
during all this i spotted an add for one that was being sold. it was the color and close to the very picture i had.
the price was a bit higher then i thought i could afford but it was in excellent shape and got me excited about it.
So i checked into a loan thinking i was not going to qualify for it. But taking the chance seemed like nothing to loose except maybe my being disappointed. but i would still be no worse or better off by not trying. So i had faith in it working and tried.
It turns out as you may have guessed i got the loan and days latter was driving the car on a sunny day near the beach.

My skeptical nature said to me hay all the manifest destiny crap was not what got you the car but it was your efforts that did it. And yes this is true but my belief and faith created my efforts and any self doubt would have caused me to make less effort or even in some peoples case sabotaged it.
so my point being manifesting what you want comes more down to the attitude you have about the desire and not just the steps to get it. you must really want it and for the right reasons as you define them.
so the last three steps as hard as they may seem can be made easy by a positive attitude about those steps. And as much as i hate Pollyanna i have to agree she is right. its just a matter of practicality.

Think it and you can be it.

Chaz

Despots and sociopaths / Politics!

What i just don't understand is why?

Why a nation of privileged educated americans chose this present government?
Is it because in reality the American people are actually just as bad?
Is the new fashion to be a clever sociopath?
Has the nation turned into narcissistic self centered zealots. Evangeliots?
Is this America today? ignorant and in denial! so self righteous to the point of apathy.
Is having your SUV and lait'e more important then the lives of countless human beings?
It seems so!
Because you ignore the lies and deceptions of the Bush administration.
Propaganda is swallowed whole by you the public. And sold to you by 'in the pocket' news agencies.
Talking heads spewing distortions of fact for the Dollar. Your dollar!
The one you wont be saving or helping your children educate themselves with.
No you will be giving it to Bush oil and company. And further strengthening there strangle hold power grab.
Why have americans who were once the proud protector of freedom now allowing its erosion at home?
And at the same time giving these psychos free rain in destroying liberty in the disguise of protecting it abroad.
And why cant you spot a con man when he is selling you a war? And yet you pay for it still! blindly!
because he can talk an old boy cowboy swagger? You think he is on your side? he is from Connecticut for Christ's sake!
he does not care or even consider the plight of other people. he cares about his fraternity buddies. beta OIL Capa.
The country is heading for despotism and you Americans just don't care! You will allow it.
I ask WHY?
It must be Because you are all from the same ILK. You agree with this presidency and his puppet masters.
because! you believe as he does. That there are two kinds of people. The "have's" and "have nots'". And you further must believe that you want to be the "have's" and make the "have nots" pay for it.
You the American people agree with economic slavery for the poor American people and other nations. Why? because your delusion is that you will be a "have". thats the lie you have been sold by corporate america and the corporate media and this corporate owned administration. so you will remain a supporter of there world domination.
This is the Bush dynasty's ultimate goal you mindless sheep don't see or refuse to see. And you will look away from there lies. And chose to ignore the human suffering they create. Stay blissful in your suburban Mc' Mansions.
isolated from any hardship or pain horror or violence your complacency allows in the larger world.
Im sure you will not have a restless sleep pestered by any empathy or conscience. And thats because you have distracted and anesthetized yourselves with the television and American Idol worship.
These are the reasons the country and world is in the present state. your stupidity is in believing you will never pay the price for all of it. It will never come to your door. You will be ruddily and most likely violently disappointed!
The funny thing is you could have still enjoyed all your same privileges in a good economy and a safer world.
there creating the unrest in the world and the tension and the fear and someone will always pull the trigger first out of fear of the other doing it first "preemptive is just a euphemism for childish fears. So if you allow this band of thieves to take over and rule the world to its destruction. they will be a cancer that will kill its host and the host is you.
So stay asleep America wile America is burning!

Men are dumb?

Ok so IM out with this friend! A female!
And we are bantering and having fun. Good food wine and laughs.
So we start talking about our X's. She tells me these stories of hers and refers to the guy as Satan.
I call my X psycho number 5. All good fun!
During this conversation she blurts out "oh men are so stupid"
I say HAY and she touches my arm and laughs and says "oh but not you" with this sly smile on her face.
And i have heard this from so many women. They hide this attitude from men though.
But i have eased dropped on conversations wear the attitude is the same.
Even in our current media i see it. Commercials where the girl is hot and all confident and the guy is a big dork and tripping over himself as the girl mocks him somehow. Yea its all in fun but its the same on sitcoms for the most part.
He's a dork and she's all that.
Men are dumb! and women have the upper hand and can easily manipulate them. HA HA!
And yet i see this all perpetuating the problem. The great divide between men and women.
And i see relationships suffer for it. Women complain they cant find a good man yet all men are automatically stupid.
The soul connections we all seek is impossible with this kind of attitude i see today.
I cant blame only the women for this Men perpetuate this stereotype by well, being stupid!
They except this roll women have carved out for them.
Personally i find it offensive and degrading ahh but i guess as a white Male today its my turn to be dealt that blow.
After all we are now to be seen as what is wrong with the world. i have to agrea actualy.
As the old boy network thats pulling all the strings these days is all old fat white guys. all they have left is power and money to get them laid. but i digress. back to the topic at hand.
But the point being Love and closeness will never be achieved by this behavior or belief system.
The very thing women want eludes them because as much as they THINK men are dumb its not true of a lot of men.
And by women being bitchy and manipulative men get sic of that and start to look around for someone new that will respect them more. we all want the person we are with to think well of us and when there is this underlined disrespect it is sensed by the other and creates resentment. its the poison that starts the fights and snide remarks and eventually your demise as a couple.
So i implore all women to counter this attitude by looking at how male oppression and derogatory attitudes towards you makes you feel. Invoke change in self and men will follow suit these days and give you the love and respect you actually want and need. Not the sudo respect your getting because they don't want to hear you bitching.